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Saturday, March 5, 2011

In Review


I'm irritated with myself because I can't seem to think of anything worthwhile to write. Time is going so fast and I want it just stop for a moment. Maybe it's the schizophrenic March weather, but I have a constant feeling of displacement, or being rushed from one day to the next without knowing how. The past three weeks have been pretty full, but looking at my now-rainbow colored planner (here's to highlighting assignments and tests in neon colors!), it was just the calm before the storm.
Here's a brief overview: I spent a full Saturday in SF shopping with my mom and fell madly head-over-heels in love with alpaca fur teddy bears. And gained extra appreciation for Blue-Bottle coffee for keeping me awake and warm as we waited for the ferry that never came. President's day weekend, I flew to WA and visited a dear friend in the minuscule (and I mean minuscule!) town of Yacolt. I'm not sure if I've ever eaten so much in one weekend, but it was a time for firsts: I went clamming and go-carting and thought my fingers were going to fall off after 7 times around the track in the below freezing weather. So much awesome in 3 days! This Tuesday, we celebrated Matthew's 13th birthday- 13!!!- in Tahoe and Mom and I built a snowman almost bigger than me. The rest of life has been mostly study guides, tests, and having fun in the in-between moments.
So if I could bottle up today, I would. I was out late last night with friends, and today was the perfect lazy-day Saturday. Time stopped for a moment, I didn't have anything to do, anywhere to go. I'm looking forward to another week of craziness and praying for the strength to continue to get up out of bed and to keep going hard at school. I don't know if I've ever studied so much in my life, and it makes me laugh when I open my planner and the whole day is a multicolored reminder of everything that's due. I don't know how it's March already. I'm la coiled wire, ready to release as soon as spring arrives (15 days!). Spring makes me crazy, and it's all I can do to breathe in as much of its sunshine as I can.
Right now, though, I'm learning contentment on an hour-by-hour basis. It's peace as I tackle 153 pg notes packages, knowing I'm in a position to be asking for a constant stream of grace. It's enjoying the all-too-short break before I have to re-enter my dungeon of a science lab because- before I know it- the day will be gone, never to be found again. It's turning over all my worries to God as I start to go to sleep and recognizing His plans are not mine. It's reveling in Friday nights with the whole week behind me and the weekend ahead.
Pizza's here, now, and I need to finish coloring my hair- Happy Saturday everyone!